Am I psychotic?
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Wed May 29, 2013 8:29 pm

I had an unusual online experience. It was completely unexpected. You could say there was flirting, and possibly cheating involved. Up to now, I've only told 1 other person, my cousin. My cousin, a medical doctor, thinks I'm psychotic and imagining the entire situation primarily because everything is so vague. For example, I've never met this online person, let alone spoken directly to him. He's never addressed me directly by name or username, nor made any direct contact (eg email, chat, messenger etc). Also, I believe this online person has somehow discovered that I post on this forum and has followed me here, reads my posts then responds at another online site unaffiliated with essentialdayspa. (My cousin, who thinks I'm psychotic, is sitting next to me helping me type this. He's not drawing the same conclusions as me. He thinks I should stop following that person's responses and I do too, but I believe I'm being stalked in real life (grocery store) so I continue to follow his regular posts.)

For the record, I've had a lot of psychiatric medication forced upon me in the past, and talking about this online experience seems to have made things MUCH MUCH WORSE. Any suggestions on how to handle this? Am I crazy?

free skin care · Thu May 30, 2013 7:20 am

I had a close friend who had a similar experience. This was before personal computers, but she felt that she was being followed. She would keep turning to see the person but could never see who it was. This was very real to her. The FEELING was REAL, just like anyone feels when they know they are being watched. While it was happening, though, she was not able to confide in anyone and was very uncomfortable

Luckily she confided in her doctor, and after a brief stay in a psychiatric unit and appropriate medication she began to feel like before the experience ie. she was not being watched or followed. It was a great relief to her.

She did meet a very nice man while in hospital and they married and had 2 children!

We are mysterious creatures, but I think you might consider addressing this if only because it is making you uncomfortable and it is disrupting your life.

My best wishes to you, and let us know how you get on.

free skin care · Thu May 30, 2013 8:42 am

Where are you from?If you could answer this roughly.
While reading your post,i felt how it is to be being watched by someone,and actually thank you about that.
Thats not psychotic.Trust your feelings.
Bear in mind that we are being watched in everything.Whatever we click on internet is being watched .When we enter a shop we are being watched and i could go all day long.

So i think you should relax and trust your feelings.
Could you elaborate more about the person's character?
Take things simple and do your skin care Very Happy

PS: If you could elaborate more on the case we coud help you.And bear always in mind to trust your feelings.I am strongly thinking logically but i trust my feelings more than logic.

free skin care · Fri May 31, 2013 12:41 am

I had a guy I dated stalk me online and hack my email.
Still trying to figure out how this guy I know found out I was a member of some sites (not here)and sent me stupid messages to me and other people on there.

Now I'm not sure how someone you did not meet would know where you hang out online.

free skin care · Fri May 31, 2013 3:13 am

mismis wrote:

I had a close friend who had a similar experience. This was before personal computers, but she felt that she was being followed. She would keep turning to see the person but could never see who it was. This was very real to her. The FEELING was REAL, just like anyone feels when they know they are being watched. While it was happening, though, she was not able to confide in anyone and was very uncomfortable

Luckily she confided in her doctor, and after a brief stay in a psychiatric unit and appropriate medication she began to feel like before the experience ie. she was not being watched or followed. It was a great relief to her.

She did meet a very nice man while in hospital and they married and had 2 children!

We are mysterious creatures, but I think you might consider addressing this if only because it is making you uncomfortable and it is disrupting your life.

My best wishes to you, and let us know how you get on.

free skin care · Fri May 31, 2013 3:17 am

Like mismis, I had a friend who quite suddenly began to suffer from mild paranoic fantasies. One night she went for her husband with a glass bottle, convinced, in that moment, that he was part of a conspiracy concerning her. A brief spell in a care centre with the correct attention and medication, and soon it was behind her, and it has not recurred.

It is not uncommon for psycholgical stress to cause feelings of being persecuted.

I hope you feel much better soon, and allow yourself to get support asap.

free skin care · Fri May 31, 2013 7:27 am

Crazy is a pretty broad term. If you've had problems with unjustified paranoia in the past, kudos to you for realizing it might be happening again. Talk to your doctor. Even if he or she prescribes medication, it's up to you whether or not to take it.

Good luck sweetie!

free skin care · Fri May 31, 2013 7:07 pm

I kind of believe that if you focus on certain scenarios, whether they're real or not, you'll be more likely to draw that kind of energy, or people who'd fit the bill, to you. (I hope that made sense. If not, feel free to ask me to elaborate.)

That said, in case it is true, you should first take steps to make sure that you're safe. That'd mean sharing your suspicions with people you trust and weighing out the advice on what, if anything, the responsible thing to do is.

Next, I would try not to fixate on the matter, not let yourself get preoccupied with his posts or activity, and do what you can to alleviate your anxiety.

And try not to use the word crazy! Sometimes passions have a way of running amuk and giving you the feeling that you're out of control. Just reign yourself in bit by bit. Trust that one day you'll be well and surefooted and focus on THAT being who you are, and this being a temporary detour.

All the best!

Fri May 31, 2013 10:38 pm

Thank you so much mismis, panoslydios, Ottawa Shopper, catski, Immacolata, and LoriA for taking the time to respond so kindly. I actually never thought for even a second that I'm psychotic, and normally I couldn't give a rat's ass if other people thought I was crazy. But my cousin and I are close and it pains me he thinks I may be delusional. He's responsible for the majority of the content of the original post, and I cursed like a sailor while typing it. And although I think my cousin is super intelligent, he's still "just" an upstart intern, and I believe one of the last things he learned before flying home to visit is how-to-pierce-ears. And no one came into the hospital that they could practice on, so he volunteered to have his own lobes done. Yeah. So, he sat there the night we posted looking just as young as dougie howser, wearing gold baby studs, playing with my dog on the bed, and telling me he thinks I'm psychotic. Right. Are you reading this G? Your diagnosis is CRAP. You've been demoted to my 2nd favorite cousin and that's not gonna change if you continue to believe I'm psychotic.

Over 10 years ago I took meds for depression and meds to slow my brain down. I know I'm dumber because of it. And following further trauma, drama and research, my religious, social, and political views are interlaced with "conspiracy theories" leading several (everyone I meet) to think I'm nuts. But I'm not trying to convert anyone and I don't care what the hell you believe. Anyway, I guess revealing that online experience will only further suggest a delusional mind because I see now that the telling of it is so ridiculous.

I'm too old for this crap. I'm expecting menopause soon. Very soon. That's how freaking old I am. And I'm taking my young cousin's advice and not only avoiding that other site, but further curbing my online activity. I almost didn't respond tonight because I'll just be tempted to check the thread again tomorrow.

I'm not posting about this again. EVER. So if for some reason you post a reply, please don't be offended if I don't respond. You ladies are incredible and I know you understand. Thanks again.

Finally, I can't be sure but it seems to me there must be an extra warm spot in hell for stalkers. That's for eternity. You can't run from that.

free skin care · Sat Jun 01, 2013 1:21 am

minze, I know you may not respond to this, no problem.

I am so sorry you are going through this, it must be really upsetting. I do agree with LoriA.

If you are being stalked, do try to keep yourself safe,and do speak to someone you trust keeping this all bottled up cant be good for your own state of mind.

And even if it isnt all happening sometimes talking with an understanding friend can make us see things differently and makes things easier.
The other thing is have you seen a "Proper" Dr maybe theres something physical going on that is affecting the way you feel!You never know!

Please take care
Again
All the best

free skin care · Sat Jun 01, 2013 4:26 am

To be honest with you minze, bitching in a post on a skincare forum to your cousin in this way seems to be indicative of instability.

free skin care · Mon Jun 03, 2013 10:38 am

Have a computer expert clean your computer to make sure you have no viruses or spyware. You could first try using free anti-spyware and anti-malware programs online but check to make sure which ones are legit.

If someone has physical access to your computer they could install a keylogger (I think that is what it is called) which records everything you type. Sometimes they can remotely view your computer screen like they do when they do remote repairs.

If you clicked a link in an email that is how some of the above can happen. Worse case scenario, throw away your computer and start fresh, learning never to open attachments or links in emails unless you know the person.

free skin care · Mon Jun 03, 2013 7:15 pm

SoftSkin wrote:

If someone has physical access to your computer they could install a keylogger (I think that is what it is called) which records everything you type. Sometimes they can remotely view your computer screen like they do when they do remote repairs.

i thought about this ^^ too
until i re-read the original post-er's
claim to *flirting and cheating etc*

however, i think she said she won't be back to read this thread anyway so your valuable tip may be disregarded regardless

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